12spazangel13S

Just a girl discovering the power of makeup(:

Hi I'm amber(: I've been alive for 14 years as of right now (may 14, 2012). I have an older brother Tyler that I love very much. I also have a dog named Max, cat named Buster, and turtle named Squirtle. I'm very excited about this. I'm generally excited about anything that's cute or fluffy. Some people think I'm annoying or don't like me. And I understand, I'm not perfect and its hard to please everyone, but if I can I always do try. I guess you can say that I over think a lot of things. I also make out a senario in my head on what I plan to happen later on and what I will do but it never turns out the way I imagined. I also tend to spill things a lot. One time I was running to my room with a bowl of really hot chilie and tripped halfway down the halway...let's just say chillie reached the celieng and it burned my back pretty bad.

My lucky number is 12, or anything with a 2 in it. I really don't like the number 7 because once I got a fortune from the arcade in Santa Cruz for a quarter that said "beware of the number 7 or u will have a gateway trip to heaven" speaking of thoes fortune cards, I always love hearing my fortune or getting my palm read. I know its not always true I just think its cool. I'm a libra which makes me a people person I guess. I do love people! They're so interesting. They come in all shapes and sizes and they're all equally beautiful in some way or another. On the other hand, I donnt enjoy people all the time. Sometimes I get reallly moody any everything annoyis me. And sometimes when I'm angry at you I tend to blow up and I have no barriers anymore. Like I say what's on my mind and that's it. I think its become that way because when I was a bit younger I seemed to let people push me around and always tell me what to do but then I reached my breaking pont and I decided I'm an independent person and I preffered to be treated like one. So I began standing up for myself(:

so many times before I've tried to keep a diary and I still have all of my past ones but it seems that I only write about 5 or 6 pages till I get too lazy and have to start a new one. Right now I'm on my 8th diary and its going pretty well. I've made a bucket list :D some things on it are to see the oscar meyer weiner mobile, to adopt a child, and to save someones life! I've always wanted to save someones life! ive been wanting to learn how to play the piano for a few years since I've seen my friend gabbi play, she is amaziong at the piano. And I know a few good song but I'm not very good so I have a key board sitting in my roomm. But it doesn't go to waste because I like to hear the noises it makes. I love listening to any kinda music play even if it is overwhellming and not orginized. My dream car is a hummer! I want one so bad even though they're super expensive. I just think they're so cool! I love archery, I played for the first time this weekend and I'm acctually really good at it so I plan to buy my own(:

when I was younger I did soccer for about 4 years and I was the goalie and we only lost 4 games. Also when I was about 3 I began dance and have been doing it ever since (I've taken a couple years break though) and I've earned about 7 medals for it. I've done all kinnd of dance classes from ballet to jazz to hiphop. I love Tracy, it a cute little city but everyone that lived here seems to hate it and I don't. I think its amazing even though it smells like cow crap.
I have about 16 blankets on my bed and i love them all even though non of them match. I can never have my foot or legs out cause im afraid a spider will crawl on my leg and tickle my feet. Im afraid of spiders and conga lines and beans. I hate it when people touch my feet or when people put their feet on me. I just dont like feet! I love bright colors. I am abnormally short for my age...ive only grown 1 inch since 5th grade (i was a tall fifth grader). And im a bit chubby..not fat, just think and i hate my legs. Sometimes i just catch myself staring at a girl and wishing i had her body...is that creepy? Yea... i hate growing up, i like being a kid and being small. Everything is so magical at this age but it seems im watching everyday people are growing more and more serious and depressing and its sad. Just cause you get older doesnt mean you need to get mean. I write song sometimes. It helps me get my feelings out but i dont ever plan to perform them for anyone because its slightly embarrassing.

I have many best friends but none that i trust with my life. Im the only person i can completely trust... and sometimes i dont even completely trust myself :p sometimes it feels like im just on the outside watching myself live my life, like i dont even make decisions, it just happens. Im pretty out going, i like to go up to strangers and talking to them to make friends. I wish every one could be my friend :p

love is tricky buisness... i have no idea what im doing when it comes to love, no one does! Its unpredictable and beautiful but sometimes very scary. Love is unpredictable and its frustrating and tragic and beautiful. Im only 14 but id like to say i know what love feels like. Its this warm fuzzy sickening feeling that everyone seems too enjoy, including myself. Love can make people do crazy things.

I still love sparkles but not as much as i did in 6th grade, i used to be called "glitter girl" because i was always cover in something with glitter! I love smelling perfume even though it gets me sick after awhile. I like things that stick out...i dont like fiting in, you will never get noticed unless you make yourself noticeable. One day i hope to make something big out of myself and maybe be a makeup artist. I used to hate makeup artists, i used to hate anything girly but latley ive been growing into it because its fun wearing dresses and its fun to be a lady sometimes(: i like to talk in accents with my friends and jokingly act ghetto no matter how white we acctually are. I love when my grandparents come over and we sit for house till the sun goes down just talking about stories about how they used to live in germany or how my grandpas house used to be haunted by my old grandma. I want to learn a foreign language, thats why im in spanish and im visiting germany in a few weeks. I like strawberry milkshakes. But i hate rootbeer and plain potatoe chips!

I have a lot of secrets that i keep to myself but if you ask me to tell you one of my secrets i usually will...i just like to see who acctually cares enough to ask(: i love akward situations because they make me start laughing really hard and they always give me a feeling like i have to sneeze for some reason. Im prone to excessive bleeding, out of nowhere i just begin bleeding and it doesnt huurt. I also scar super easily... they are beautiful hideous scars all over my arms and everyone seems to stare at them when i talk. But i dont mind, theyre my battle wounds and i think they look cool and make me look tough even though im a short blonde girl. I like when people say my name in conversations. I also tend not to reply to texts from people alot cause i dont know what to talk about and i hate saying good bye. My family and friends say im colorblind, so i am and its cool :p

im pretty surprised that you read all of this...goodjob! This was redicuously long i just felt it was neccisarry to update rather than doing my homework. So go listen to some music and smile becuase everyone is more beautiful when they smile. Thankyou. I love you like i love having the last word or trying new food. And thats real love.♥

~Amber Lukinbeal